Saturday, June 27, 2009


The weekend is here. It means another day at the faire. There is a wedding this weekend, I'll probably end up shooting some of it. There will be swords and kilts, Welsh cookies, music, dancers, and music. It will be much fun.

I was able to finally start writing again Friday and what was blocking me (yeah). It was during Microbiology class, which I figure is fine because I couldn't understand 3/4 of what the professor said anyway. Again, good things came out of it. Wow, considering what I was writing during class ......

Anyway, I did write. And I will write and study today.

Friday - 150 words (hand written because I was taking notes - really, I was.)

Friday, June 26, 2009

Bad Writer!

It's Friday and I didn't write Wednesday or Thursday. Nope, I read. Most of both days. Well, in between work, school, phone calls, and going through like 200+ email.

I read Brotherly Bonds by Brynn Paulin - about the 4 Cress Brothers. Excellent book - well books.

So, no, I didn't get any writing done. I did have a couple of interesting discussions on such diverse topics as genetics, mythos, and Japanese history. And now, yet another class and work this weekend. December is graduation. Yeah. And just for fun, I'm thinking about going to Kansas City in July for Carol Lynne's Author/Reader Weekend. And I need to try and hit 1K words today. Should be hitting more. Deadline approaches.

Wednesday - 0 words
Thursday - 0 words

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


The photograph (DoodleDoll Productions) is the pier that Nick walks down and watches the waves crash on it.

I have a soundtrack for every book I write. It's the music that either invokes the emotion I need or want to capture or speaks to me about the main characters and story lines involved in the book.

Here is the soundtrack for Finding Love.
1. Lose Control - Evanescence - The Open Door -
2. Weight of the World - Evanescence - The Open Door
3. Sweet Sacrifice - Evanescence - The Open Door
4.Toast - Tori Amos - The Beekeeper
5. Original Sinsuality - Tori Amos - The Beekeeper
6. We're Not Going to Take It - Twisted Sister - We're Not Going To Take It
7. Evacuee - Enya - Shepard's Moon
8. The Hunter - Clannad - Sirius
9. I Will Find You - Clannad - Banba
10. Bring Me to Life - Evanescence - Fallen
11. Going Under - Evanescence - Fallen
12. Pain -
Composed by:Larry Buksbaum, BMI, Scott P. Schreer, BMI -
13. Thunderization -
Composed by:Pierre Langer, SESAC (50%), Scott P. Schreer, BMI (50%) -
14. Tears of Joy -
Composed by:Pierre Langer, SESAC (50%), Scott P. Schreer, BMI (50%) -
15. Eagle's Path - Ah*Nee*Mah - Ancient Voices
16. Broken Pieces - Clannad - Lore

It's an eclectic mixing of music to say the least.

Word Count:
Monday - 132
Tuesday - 222

Monday, June 22, 2009


I've been working on a new book and I had hoped to finish it by this past Friday. Alas, I didn't get it done. Now, I have to get it done by mid-July. I promised it would be done by then.

It's a contemporary m/m. I'm not sure how much BDSM there will be in it. The guys have taken on a life of their own, as they are want to do, and I'm not sure what will happen with them. We'll just have to wait and see. I'm in the middle of a difficult scene, it pulls my emotions in any number of directions.

So, in order to keep me on the track, I need to make a deal with myself - see the first book was easier to write, because it wasn't due to anyone until I sent it out - so that I get at least 1000 words done each day on my WIP.

Today's word count - 0 (so not good!) :(

Sunday, June 14, 2009

First Love

Discussion on a loop dredged up the memory of my first love. Nope, that isn't him, that's Casper Van Dien - actor - pretty to look at. No, I don't know if I have any photos of my first love. I know I used to. I just don't know if they survived my ex. No, my ex wasn't my first love. I'm not even sure I loved him.

No, I met him while I was in Colorado, during training in Denver, a year or so before they shut the base down. We met in the snow at one in the morning, because some idiot pulled the fire alarm. I was amazingly dressed in combat boots, pj's, and a drab green wool blanket - military issued. It was bloody cold. We started talking. A few days later I met him again. He'd been there longer than I had been. We talked, hung out, when we could leave the base, we dated off base.

He was a great guy, had a beautiful singing voice. He didn't have that bad-boy look to him, he's actually the type that would have surprised you. The bad guy would think he was a wimp, because he wasn't big and bulky. He was a martial artist. There were times we sit, not saying a lot, and he'd sing. I loved to hear him sing. While we were dating he found he was a dad, we weathered it, and tried to find out how she was doing. What we couldn't weather was our friends saying that he had cheated on me with one of them. He never denied, so I believed him. He left, and I refused to talk to him. Years later I found him again, we talked a lot and found out it was a huge lie. Out of jealousy, I guess. By that time we were both married. Time passes, bases change, and we dropped out of contact. I found him again once, he was divorced and in school and I was dealing with a sick child and trying to get out of an abusive situation. I lost contact with him again. I'd given my friends some of things I'd kept of his to hold onto for me, because of my ex and I only heard from them once after they left. I couldn't take the stuff back because I wasn't free yet.

I didn't tell him, couldn't, wouldn't is more like it I suppose tell him, it was memories of us together that had helped me through my marriage. And its some of the same qualities I saw in him, that I look for in guys now. And that is a lot for a guy to bear.

I miss him still. I knew where his parents lived at one point, though I'd never met them. I hope he's found someone who makes him profoundly happy.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

New Home and Other News

I have a new home - well a new virtual one - my website ( is almost ready for launch. Well, it's up now, with a huge - coming soon sticker on it. But it's being built and I'm thrilled.

I'm plugging away at my next M/M erotic romance, which is actually the first book in a series surrounding the characters in a boutique brewery and tavern. I'm making good head way on it, and would like to have it finished by next Friday, but we'll see. I have been able to get about 1000 words a day for the most part.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

And That's 3

There was a time not so long ago that my mom would have hesitated to call me and deliver the news that she did today. A time when jealousy and anger would have tried to rear their ugly heads at it. Today, I laughed and I cried and I couldn't be happier.

I have a single biological child, just one. I went through the same drugs these sextuplets and septulets were born on and I got one. There will be no more biological children for me. And now, I'm okay with it, but that time a few years ago when my sister, sister-in-law, and my aunt were all pregnant at the same time - I wasn't. I was still adjusting and accepting.

The news my mom told me today - I'm going to be a GREAT aunt. Yeah, a great aunt - first I'm not really sure I'm old enough for that, but I'm not the grandma so it's better. And that rounds out the pregnancies to a nice even three. THe rule of three. A couple of months ago we found out that my cousin is pregnant by her fiancee (her mom flipped her lid), and I have a really good friend and her husband that are expecting their first.

So, laugh and cry and celebrate with me for the new babies to grace my life!