For the record, getting sick sucks. Big Time. I had planned on finishing Behind the Masque this month. It needed to be finished this month because there are other things I want to write. Getting sick was not in the cards, because I couldn't write. The couple of days I took off from the day job were mostly spent sleeping and coughing. With a little bit of stitching, because dragging myself out to the computer wasn't happening.
Ursula LeGuin passed away yesterday. You can read the story here. Today, I'm starting A Wizard of Earthsea. I have several of her books in my To Be Read pile, but haven't read any of them. I also have Left Hand of Darkness that I intend on reading this year.
I did make progress towards my goals until I got sick, and I do intend to write at least 15 minutes a day for the rest of the week. Hopefully more than that. I missed writing.
Blessings,
Simone.
Wednesday, January 24, 2018
Friday, January 12, 2018
Smuggler's Cove - Knight of Pleasure
Book one in the Smuggler's Cove Series.
Wounded in Iraq, Dean Hudson is forced to give up his dream of a career in the Marine Corps. Nearly recovered from the physical wounds that left him scarred, he resigns himself to a life alone, and begins to deal with the emotional and mental scars the war left behind while he tries to rebuild a life. Having kept his homosexuality a secret for so long, he doesn't expect to find love or acceptance in the arms of a knight.
On the weekends, successful brewery co-owner, Dom Ethan Moreland dons armour and a sword and fights other knights. The adrenaline rush and stress relief provided by the atmosphere of the renaissance faire also serve as a constant reminder of the love he still hasn't found and can't remember having.
When Dean meets Ethan dressed as a knight, he never dreams that he will find happiness and love on his knees while submitting to Ethan.
Wounded in Iraq, Dean Hudson is forced to give up his dream of a career in the Marine Corps. Nearly recovered from the physical wounds that left him scarred, he resigns himself to a life alone, and begins to deal with the emotional and mental scars the war left behind while he tries to rebuild a life. Having kept his homosexuality a secret for so long, he doesn't expect to find love or acceptance in the arms of a knight.
On the weekends, successful brewery co-owner, Dom Ethan Moreland dons armour and a sword and fights other knights. The adrenaline rush and stress relief provided by the atmosphere of the renaissance faire also serve as a constant reminder of the love he still hasn't found and can't remember having.
When Dean meets Ethan dressed as a knight, he never dreams that he will find happiness and love on his knees while submitting to Ethan.
Excerpt:
Dean nodded and shifted uncomfortably in
his seat, wanting to bolt. The crowded open area of the faire set his nerves on
edge, and he longed for peace and quiet and solitude. Jennie wriggled out of
his lap, and he waited for her to climb down to the bench in front of them to
join her two brothers before he edged away from Carla.
Dean rubbed his sweating palms on his
jeans, thankful the breezy day spared him the awkwardness of explaining why he
wasn’t wearing shorts. He hadn’t worn shorts since before his last deployment,
when his body and life were changed forever. It was a day like any other, but
one he would never forget the day of his last patrol. Two years later, he was
looking at an uncertain future as a disabled vet who couldn’t stand on his own
two feet without the aid of a cane.
He watched the maroon-clad knight, Ethan,
round on his opponent, swing his sword and drive the man to his knees. Kicking
him in the chest, he raised his hands in celebration as the man toppled backwards.
Half of the crowd cheered. The other half booed. An armour-less man dressed in
a black and white tunic bearing the colours and crest of the entertainment
troop rushed forward to help the defeated knight to his feet.
“Honour her majesty!”
One after another, the armoured men dropped
to one knee, heads bowed in the direction of a short, round, blonde-haired
woman, who despite her smile, looked as though she’d just tasted something
disgusting. Ethan stuck his sword into the dirt, removed his helmet then knelt
on one knee.
Dean inhaled sharply. Long, light-brown
hair was tied at the nape of the man’s neck, and beads of sweat ran down the
sides of his face. His angular jaw gave way to the subtle lines hidden beneath
armour.
“Ethan’s gay, by the way, and single,”
Carla whispered in his ear. “I thought you might like him.”
“You told me in one of the letters you sent
me. If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were trying to play matchmaker,”
Dean said good-naturedly, hugging his sister.
“Why shouldn’t I want my brother to find
true love?”
He
wasn’t sure about true love, but Dean wondered what it would be like to get
fucked by Ethan. The single photograph Carla had sent him of Ethan was
decidedly less sexy than the sight on the field in front of him. Dean started.
How long had it been since he’d thought about another guy? Too long, he
chastised himself. There was no guarantee that Ethan was single, and Dean had
to meet a player he liked. He strongly suspected Ethan was a top, which suited
him fine. Dean had topped before, but he preferred bottoming. So had Brad, his
ex, so he’d ended up topping more often than not, wanting to make his lover
happy. It hadn’t been enough to keep Brad from cheating on him.
Dean remembered the day he’d come home
early and found Brad in their bed, technically Dean’s bed, with one of the
company clerks. Dean shook his head, pulling himself from his memories,
surprised to find all of the armoured men standing in the centre of the ring.
The combatants squared off. Dean winced when Ethan was hit first in the leg by
one person followed closely on the back of the helmet by the knight in the
green and yellow tunic.
“Come on, I’ll introduce you to him. You’ll
like him.” Carla giggled.
Dean smiled and nodded trying to keep his
excitement at bay.
“Ethan! Lord Blackmoore!” Carla called out,
drawing the attention of several knights.
“You fought wonderfully, as always,” Carla
said, hugging Ethan.
“Ethan, this is my brother Dean Hudson,”
Carla said, reaching for Dean. “Dean, this is one of my best friends, Ethan
Moreland, also known as Lord Blackmoore, one of the Knights of Steel.”
“Nice to meet you, Dean. Welcome home.”
Ethan held out his hand.
Dean moved his cane to the other hand and
shook hands with Ethan, who ran his thumb over Dean’s knuckles. Desire ran
rampant through Dean’s body, pooling in his groin at the contact. “Nice to meet
you too,” Dean replied, wishing he knew Ethan well enough to move the errant
strand of light brown hair that fell across one dark eye.
“You’re being summoned my lord,” Carla said,
turning from them towards the arena where the other knights had gathered.
“You will be staying for a while right?”
Ethan asked, looking from Dean to Carla and back again.
Dean saw the plea in sister’s eyes, pushed
aside his growing discomfort and nodded. He wanted today to be special for her.
On top of working, raising her kids and trying to have a life, she’d been
looking after him since he’d returned home.
“It was nice to meet you,” Dean said, half
hoping he’d get to know Ethan better.
“My pleasure, Dean. My pleasure,” Ethan
answered, running two knuckles along Dean jaw line. Dean thought he saw a look
of possession in Ethan’s eyes before the man turned and left them.
“Come on. Let’s go see more of the faire,”
Carla began as soon as Ethan was out of hearing distance. She hooked an arm
through his and pulled him away from the arena. “So, what do you think?”
“They do this for fun?” Dean looked around
at the vast array of costumes ranging from elegant to gaudy. He leaned heavily
on his cane, carefully picking his way over the rough terrain.
** You can find Knight of Pleasure Here**
Blessings,
Simone.
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Monday, January 8, 2018
From the Writer's Desk - An Interesting Start
2018 is off to an interesting start. I'm still not sure what to make out of it. I still believe it is going to be a great year, but forming new habits is difficult and if it's not something that is done everyday, it's easy to forget. Especially achieving goals.
I had an extended weekend from my day job to ring in the New Year. What I hadn't quite realized was the extent I needed that vacation or how close to burn-out I was. I did manage to write on Behind the Masque on Monday, the 1st. But that was the only day. I did write on Thursday and Friday of last week on Marked, a book that I'm writing longhand, generally at work, but it goes everywhere with me, so it's an anywhere sort of work in progress as my laptop is no longer portable. The screen has to be in just the right position so I can see what's on the monitor. I woke up late both Thursday and Friday and decided to forgo my normal morning routine. Again. It didn't bother me that I missed my routine, but I did notice that I wasn't as productive or focused on my goals, both the big picture and the monthly goals. I also had a headache that lasted from Wednesday when I woke up through Saturday, which meant writing would have been harder, but not impossible, it's not like I had a migraine or one of those extremely intense and painful headaches, this was more annoying - pain-wise, but added to the stress from work and it was an easy excuse to not write. Or do much of anything. And that's bad, because it was an excuse to not do something hard in favor of something easy. Since I'm having to re-establish my writing routine, anything that I allow to distract me from that routine, because it's easier, less messy, less whatever, means my goal of being able to write full time is no longer my priority.
I also didn't write over the weekend. I worked Saturday, then did laundry, which isn't bad, but I have to go to the laundromat and that seriously sucks. Sunday was a different story - furnace died sometime during the night on Saturday or early Sunday morning, and the pipes froze, which meant I didn't have heat or water. We had space heaters, but the furnace needed a part that the tech had to order. It was a long, cold day and night.
We should have heat today and the pipes should unthaw between the heat in the house and the heatwave - it's over freezing with extremely cold windchills (for Michigan). So, I have an extra day off. R's second semester at college started today, so s/he couldn't miss that.
I plan on writing today. My word goal for the year is 365000 words, which is 1,000 words a day. Writing in 15 minutes increments, with a daily goal of to only write 15 minutes a day, means on average, I may only write 250 words a day, which is a bit less than 1,000. But the 15 minute goal is really only a starting place. It's small enough that I'm not setting myself up to fail, but it also lets me challenge myself. So, if my word count for 15 minutes was only 87 words, then I've challenged myself to go again for another 15 minutes to get a more respectable word count. And by then, I'm at a point where I want to know what is going to happen. I'm a pantser, I have no idea what's going to happen before I write it.
This week's goals/tasks are:
+ Write 15 minutes everyday on Behind the Masque (working on Marked is fine, but doesn't go toward my goal because I want Behind the Masque finished by the end of January)
+ Work on my Series Bibles for Bissari Confederation and Smuggler's Cove. - I'm using One Note to create my Series Bibles, but I want to look into other options as I want to move Apple and I want something that I can use on that platform as well so I don't have to rebuild everything and I don't lose everything.
Blessings,
Simone.
I had an extended weekend from my day job to ring in the New Year. What I hadn't quite realized was the extent I needed that vacation or how close to burn-out I was. I did manage to write on Behind the Masque on Monday, the 1st. But that was the only day. I did write on Thursday and Friday of last week on Marked, a book that I'm writing longhand, generally at work, but it goes everywhere with me, so it's an anywhere sort of work in progress as my laptop is no longer portable. The screen has to be in just the right position so I can see what's on the monitor. I woke up late both Thursday and Friday and decided to forgo my normal morning routine. Again. It didn't bother me that I missed my routine, but I did notice that I wasn't as productive or focused on my goals, both the big picture and the monthly goals. I also had a headache that lasted from Wednesday when I woke up through Saturday, which meant writing would have been harder, but not impossible, it's not like I had a migraine or one of those extremely intense and painful headaches, this was more annoying - pain-wise, but added to the stress from work and it was an easy excuse to not write. Or do much of anything. And that's bad, because it was an excuse to not do something hard in favor of something easy. Since I'm having to re-establish my writing routine, anything that I allow to distract me from that routine, because it's easier, less messy, less whatever, means my goal of being able to write full time is no longer my priority.
I also didn't write over the weekend. I worked Saturday, then did laundry, which isn't bad, but I have to go to the laundromat and that seriously sucks. Sunday was a different story - furnace died sometime during the night on Saturday or early Sunday morning, and the pipes froze, which meant I didn't have heat or water. We had space heaters, but the furnace needed a part that the tech had to order. It was a long, cold day and night.
We should have heat today and the pipes should unthaw between the heat in the house and the heatwave - it's over freezing with extremely cold windchills (for Michigan). So, I have an extra day off. R's second semester at college started today, so s/he couldn't miss that.
I plan on writing today. My word goal for the year is 365000 words, which is 1,000 words a day. Writing in 15 minutes increments, with a daily goal of to only write 15 minutes a day, means on average, I may only write 250 words a day, which is a bit less than 1,000. But the 15 minute goal is really only a starting place. It's small enough that I'm not setting myself up to fail, but it also lets me challenge myself. So, if my word count for 15 minutes was only 87 words, then I've challenged myself to go again for another 15 minutes to get a more respectable word count. And by then, I'm at a point where I want to know what is going to happen. I'm a pantser, I have no idea what's going to happen before I write it.
This week's goals/tasks are:
+ Write 15 minutes everyday on Behind the Masque (working on Marked is fine, but doesn't go toward my goal because I want Behind the Masque finished by the end of January)
+ Work on my Series Bibles for Bissari Confederation and Smuggler's Cove. - I'm using One Note to create my Series Bibles, but I want to look into other options as I want to move Apple and I want something that I can use on that platform as well so I don't have to rebuild everything and I don't lose everything.
Blessings,
Simone.
Monday, January 1, 2018
Happy New Year - Looking Ahead to 2018
Happy New Year! I sincerely hope everyone's 2018 is better than their 2017. May you have a year of blessings, surrounded by people you love and who love you in return. Pursue your dreams. They can happen - become a reality. Set your goals and work every day toward them. Personally, I've been looking forward to 2018 since probably the middle of November. I took a hard look at my year, both professionally and personally. I summed up the results below.
My favorite memories from 2017 include:
* R graduating from high school.
* Taking R for first a college visit then to get books after s/he was accepted to the local community college.
* Visiting with family and friends, especially my aunt and uncle from Texas.
The Positive:
* I made sense of money matters.
* I discovered the Miracle Morning
* I discovered the Writing Excuses Podcast
* Learning to deal create and update my own website.
The Negatives:
* Depression, PTSD, and Stress
* Lack of motivation
* I didn't finish, submit, or have anything published this year.
What held me back:
* Fear
* Depression
* Anxiety
* Lack of planning
* Lack of focus
What helped:
* Establishing a morning routine (Miracle Morning)
* Listening to the Writing Excuses Podcast - motivation
* Readjusting my goals so I'm setting myself up for success instead of failure. - Short, time based goals.
* Accountability - posting my word count update to Instagram.
My 2017 Goals were:
* Ideally, I want to write 12 books, my goal is 5. -- I didn't finish any
* Write 365,000 words -- which sounds like a lot until you realize it's only 1,000 words a day. Some authors manage 6,000 - that's my goal, but I still have a day job and life stress, so, 1,000 it is.
1st Quarter - 14, 455
2nd Quarter - 12,049
3rd Quarter - 8,368
4th Quarter - 6,631
Total - 41, 503 words
Best month - January (7,303)
Worst month - October (79)
* Read 26 books
3 Classics
3 Non-Fiction
20 - Whatever
Read 12 -
3 Classics
3 Non-Fiction
6 Whatever -
5 fiction
1 non-fiction
* Blog Weekly - nope.
In Review -
Numbers are nice, but without a point of reference or context, they're just numbers. January as a high number makes sense, because I entered 2017 with tons of energy. October as the lowest number kind of surprised me. It's probably misleading a bit though. I wrote long-hand on a couple of stories - started them anyway, but those words aren't counted in the numbers above. It could be as much as 2500 words off, but I haven't counted and I'm not sure where I stuck either notebook to count. I figured I'd count them when I typed them in, but I haven't done that yet.
October and November are particularly busy at the day job, but this year there was a lot more stress, and it leaked over into December. All of it. The paycheck was nice, but I'm burnt out. It's taken about a week for me to start to feel normal again. I have a long weekend and because of the crappy weather, I haven't had to go out or do a whole lot. Which is nice. I stitched and read. Mostly stitched. But, I'm ready to get back to work. Not to my day job, but to writing. To the job I really really want to have.
One of the things I have to take into account going forward is the almost non-stop negativity and hatred that seems to be permeating everything. For me, it's draining. Mentally, emotionally, and even physically. It's more important that ever for me to find the joy in the every day things. In small things. Squirrels playing. Deer eating. Early morning undisturbed snow. The brilliant Full Moon tonight. It will come in finding people and causes to support, that are worth spending the energy on.
Looking Ahead to 2018
I plan on continuing my short, time-based daily goal of writing 15 minutes a day. I have to build the writing momentum back up, and it's hard to start again after not writing for a while. At least it is for me with all I've been dealing with.
One of the things I realized that I missed and am missing in my life is a writers group. More than just a writer's group, but to hang out and talk with other writers. I need to get out and meet new people period. But, I do need to find a critique group or start one and I'll rejoin RWA when my taxes come in.
I do have a word count goal I'd like to hit, but I would rather focus on finishing projects. So, I'll be tracking my word count in my Sprint Log and on my project trackers, but my focus is for 2018 is to really get back into a regular writing routine. I know I will need to deal with mental health issues occasionally, but hopefully they won't become debilitating.
I have broken my yearly goals down into quarterly goals and monthly goals. To me, goals should be in manageable chunks that don't set you up for failure, push you or motivate you, and can be measured accurately.
For January my goals are:
Finish "Behind the Masque"
Write 15 minutes every day
I thought about saying I only have to write 5 times a week, but the idea is to re-build a habit. New habits take 30 days to form completely and solidly. So, every day. Because, I actually don't like my job. Not really. I love the mission of the organization, but it doesn't make me happy. Writing makes me happy. This is how I want to spend my days. My goal in 2018 is to myself on the path to being able to write full time.
Happy New Year!!
Have a Blessed Year,
Simone.
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